Wow. Some people….
I had one sour point to my day – I went absolutely out of my way to be there for that jerk who insulted me yesterday because I knew he was going to have a stressful day. I still wanted to offer him some support. He doesn’t have much of it in his life (and no, I don’t wonder why) and I really care about that asshat for some stupid reason. I didn’t even read his snotty email response to me….skipped it entirely so I wouldn’t be annoyed with him and told him I’d be there for him if he needed me. His day went differently than planned but he didn’t bother to tell me, badmouthed me on his blog and just ignored my kindness. I’ve given him all of my heart and all he does is complain about how I’m not **** enough. Good, warm, compassionate, attentive, positive, affectionate, loving, available….you could put just about any adjective in there and it would probably be something he’s said to me at some point in time. I’m not even what he wants as a friend and yet, he keeps trying to force me to be something I’m not and then get mad at me (and guilts me!) when I don’t stay there. How can someone who just read this email think I’m just looking out for myself and couldn’t care less about his needs?
I see you’ve written me but I’ll wait until tomorrow to read what you wrote – If you’re picking a fight I don’t want to take the bait and make your day frustrating in any way….I know today is important to you.
I just want you to know that no matter how you feel about me right now, I’m thinking about you and sending every calming vibe I can find. I hope, with all my love, that the appointment goes exactly as planned today and you come away with the scrip you need to get back into life. I know it will help you focus and feel better…find some motivation to keep pushing forward. I’ll be here for you if you need me. I’ll open Skype shortly and will leave it open for you today. I have a lunch meeting but aside from that I’m free and will make myself free after work as well.
Okay? I love you. Breathe deep today and don’t worry. Things will work out and you’ll be back in action before you know it.
Soooo never mind then. Asshole.