Not even here…
This is not turning out to be the best week of my life. I’ve been struggling with falling asleep since the weekend and they’re getting worse as the hours pass. This is my second intense ‘attack’ of the day today and I’m so frustrated I’m almost in tears. I feel so fucking alone. I just want to crawl into bed and get away from this place, this life.
I can’t be bothered right now. I’m just going to sit here for another hour and a half and then go home to sleep. Sometimes the dreams aren’t terrible. I’m never this tired there and I feel like I fit in to that world in ways I just can’t seem to fit in here.
So. 2-2.5 hours to go before I’m asleep. Counting down….