Wednesday Update :)
So my job is still going well, even after payroll and the annual vacation pick went through…I didn’t make many mistakes and people are being quite forgiving which is very cool. I’m still in the good over here. 🙂
I now have a dilemma to face though. Maybe you guys can help me work it out. My HR support called me yesterday to tell me about a job they were ‘holding’ for me. (I.e. it’s a draft posting at this point so I got a head’s up due to being on layoff notice). She said it was perfect for my skill set and it is…it’s an admin job, a level lower than my last, but it’s 5$ more an hour which will bring me back to where I was, more or less. The money is a BIG deal for me…plus, it’s permanent, full-time. So here’s the pro/con list:
Current job: I really enjoy doing this work. The people are great, the work is interesting and engaging. I get to help out on a clinical floor and I love this environment. The hours are amazing and are working very well with everyone’s schedule. I have tons of support here and everyone is friendly and helpful. I feel successful, needed, wanted and liked. I get tons of good feedback all the time and I love helping my staff members in any way I can.
Cons, Current Job: It’s not permanent and it’s union. When it posts as permanent, which it will in the next few months, I will apply for it, of course, but if anyone with more seniority than my piddly few months happens to apply and they already have payroll, staffing and scheduling training, there is nothing my boss can do….they have to hire the more senior staff member. If they don’t, the senior staff can grieve it and I will, eventually, be let go and they will take my place. It’s always best not to piss off the union. My bosses hands will be tied, no matter how much she likes me. If I do not get the job I’m out of the hospital and unemployed.
Prospective job: Pros: It’s permanent full-time. I will be paid more money which will improve my quality of life (return it to what I was used to).
Cons: It’s an admin role, which I hated doing in the first place. It’s not in a clinical unit. It is working for a department I’m not sure will be so secure in the coming years and the people who work there that I would be supporting are a pain in the neck. I’ve dealt with them in my last role and they are the sort to never return phone calls or email. The VP of the department is my old Chair’s, who hated me, biggest fan. She flirts and fawns over him and his cute little pink hanky’s and stripped socks. (He’s gay, she thinks that’s just about the greatest thing EVER). *sigh* I don’t really want this job.
HR told me that if they make these arrangement and I turn the job down, my preference will be eliminated and I’ll be on my own. I won’t get severance (which isn’t much anyway) and the assistance will stop. That’s a big deal right there so I don’t know what to do.
I talked to D about it before I fell asleep last night and he was surprisingly angry with me for even considering it. He says that the money no longer matters to him. He can see a part of me glowing that has been dim for the last ten years and he loves seeing it….he says I’m truly happy for the first time in a long, long while. Five dollars an hour is just not worth it, in his eyes. We stopped discussing it.
I think I’ll go for the meeting…it’s not even an interview since the staff there know me so well. The HR chick said “Did you ever work with Grainne?” and they said “We’ll take her!” before any further discussion was had. They’re getting an exec admin for the price of a secretary so it’s a good deal for them too. God that money though. Crap. I don’t know what to do. Any thoughts guys?
My hand is getting much worse and now when I wake up in the night because of my back (lower is killing me now too. I’m still not taking my full pain-killer doses so I don’t go stupid and start messing up here), my hands (both) are clenched in fists, the left swollen and the lower joint inflamed and the upper joint is now freezing. If I move it, it will snap forward and backward in a painful jolt but I keep doing it until the movement is a bit more fluid. I made an appointment to see my doctor….not for another two weeks though. I’m thinking I finally have some typical arthritis to present. 😦 Maybe this will lead to me getting some better help? At least I don’t have to trial every NSAID on the market again…been there, done that. I’m just glad it’s my left hand, not my right. When the right starts to go…typing is gonna suck.
So more fun to deal with. My lower back is all messed up too these days…I suspect it’s more degeneration…feels the same as the top half. I have several bulging discs down there…maybe one finally herniated like the ones in my upper. This is so exhausting and neverending. Still…at least work is pretty awesome. Unless I go back to the admin world. Gah. What do I dooooo?
Have a good Wed All.