Whining and Complaining. Pain again. Nothing new or interesting….*sigh*
Oh guys. Things are bad inside my body right now. I’m not sure exactly what to do with this. My back is hurting so much I can’t function….it’s just usually a much different set of pains that are working against me, but his is flat-out agony.
I went to the bathroom this morning (hiya Tooooo Much Info about to hit you here) and when I went to wipe I found myself unable to turn my body to accomplish it. I couldn’t reach behind my own rear end to clean myself…what the hell do I do with that? I ended up just jumping into the shower…but really. Can I call D for help with that? I’m pretty sure he wasn’t planning on wiping my ass for a few more years yet, if anything. It’s not even like I could benefit from baby wipes or something to make it easier, I just can’t fucking reach … can’t move in that direction.
Now THAT is a bit much to deal with.
Every part of the fucking thing hurts. It hurts to breathe, to sit, to lie down, to stand, to cough (holy crap is that ever an experience in explosive pain). I showered under scalding hot water trying to release the muscles some but I think it was a bad idea as I ended up making the actual spine feel unsupported which made it all hurt more.
I can’t reach above my head. I can’t hold my hands to my face so can’t even apply make up or brush my hair. I have to breathe shallowly to stop myself from constantly cringing and gritting my teeth (which hurt, and my jaw and face are on board as well, of course).
This is easily the most pain I’ve been in for ever. Clear 8/10 and I’ve doubled all my pain meds, took three muscle relaxers (to my usual one) and had a handful of Advil just incase there’s some inflammation going on. That was all an hour ago so this is the best I’m gonna get.
Must make appointment to see my doc. It’s hard enough living like I was…this? This is fucking insane. 😦 Thankfully it’s Sunday and I don’t have to do anything but laundry and my boys are helping so much this weekend. I didn’t even tell them but they know. I feel so lucky to have them with me.
Back to sleep for a while I guess. Slept all day yesterday, all night last night. Might as well carry on until tomorrow eh? *sigh*