I trusted him
I TRUSTED him, the jackass. I told him my most vulnerable secret and he never once asked if I was okay. He just nodded and lied to my face….even today; he made some bullshit show out of caring about “me the person” suddenly. He kept going on about me going home and asked what I had to do today, what he should cover. I said it was fine, went back to my office and locked the door. I texted my coworker to bring me some Kleenex, I texted D, Drew and wrote blog so people would know and then I just sat there.
I heard them murmuring in his office beforehand. Don’t bring all these things up, she said, telling him that he didn’t need to justify himself to me.
He drove with me to a meeting last week, spent the ride staring straight ahead, talking away about the cruise he and his family will be taking shortly. He sounded excited. Knew he had to get rid of me before he left.
I didn’t do anything wrong. Well, I made a few clerical errors I shouldn’t have but they were not big ones, by a long shot. He didn’t like me. He never liked me…we always had a weird edge. I didn’t click with the office girls either. One I knew from before but the others fuss around with juicing diets and Zumba classes and plan their vacations and family reunions with their perfect healthy well adapted children. *sigh*.
No one ever likes me. I should never have pretended that they did…should never have shown that weakness. 😦